So, it’s been a while. I can’t believe it’s already the second week of March – though I guess if I look back on what I’ve done so far this year, I… can.
I’ve been doing a lot of writing. A LOT. It was the point of stepping back from studying, but it’s still a relatively new phenomenon for me. I’m still ironing out the kinks in terms of timing and giving myself enough time to breathe, though I suppose it was inevitable that I would go all out and try and grab as many things as possible at the same time and power through them. I don’t know that I know any other way to be. I have a shitload of pieces that are either under consideration or slated to be published, so it’s been a bit of a frenzy.
I’ve done a lot of new stuff, too. I was on my first panel a couple of weeks ago for UN Youth Queensland, which was a good primer for my panels at Emerging Writers Festival in June (!!) I still have a lot of residual stage fright from my days as a painfully shy child, so it was encouraging to know that I could speak to a bunch of high school students without making an absolute fool of myself. I wrote my first theatre review ever for The Guardian, on one of the best pieces of art I’ve had the fortune to feast my eyes upon – Single Asian Female. I went to Melbourne and met a whole bunch of amazing people I am so blessed to call my friends, and I even survived the weird cold snap that occurred when I was there.
And just recently, I officially launched Pencilled In. I don’t know that there’s anything to say about it that I haven’t already said – except that the “Chinese-you’re-not-doing-enough-with-your-life” part of me has allowed itself a little fist pump. Sometimes I think I write and talk too much about being Asian, or racism, or a combination of the two. But the reception to the magazine has shown me that this work is important, and encouraged me to keep going. I can only hope that everyone who’s supported me and the magazine so far will keep on doing so, and just maybe, we can start seeing more Asian names in Australian publishing.
I still have many other ambitious projects in mind. (Well, honestly it’s just one really ambitious project, and the others seem moderately achievable). I’m in that weird space of trying to figure out how much is too much, especially without the tried and tested baseline of university work that I’ve had to do for the past six years. In any case, I’m excited (but also really fucking scared!?) and I hope you’ll all follow along.
(By the way, I’ve got a couple of pieces coming out soon so keep all your eyes peeeled!)